dear right now

dear right now

when did our life together 

become so complicated

i remember way back when 

things were so much simpler then

we lived 

laughed

loved

like the cheesy sign said

because we were worth it

we were hashtag blessed

our days like old polaroid pictures

slightly hazy but lovely just the same

now we are living inside a zoom lens

everything painfully clear

yet distorted frame by frame

i look in the mirror and barely recognize myself

we’ve both been changed

our soft edges hardened

so that when we come together

one of us always

walks away slightly bruised

like the evening news

we are in a constant

state of breaking

and i wonder

how long

it will take

for the story of us

to break wide open

fragments of 

rage

and shame

and grief

flying through the air

like shards of glass

and i have no idea 

what will be left of us

possibly nothing

or possibly

some tiny

delicate

unformed

thing

waiting

to be born

out of what

you and i

once were

and maybe

my dear right now

that is why

we came together

in the first place